Even a self-proclaimed Jester can be weak. I am not sadistic, I do not get satisfaction from the downfall of others. I am not a sadistic Jester.

These holidays have been pretty amazing. I think its only during these two months of the year which I really get to observe people, make new friends, remake old friends and find out how true some people really are. I finally found out that its friends and people who keep me going. Either that or I have extreme split personality disorder =P

Either I become really sadistic and independent, just to prove to everyone I can do it. Or I find friends to push me on next year, which I believe I have found some. I really really hope its the latter that will happen.